Hello Beth,

I miss talking with you. This is the number one thing I wanted to respond with. For some reason you been on my mind, a lot >>. From what I am getting at, I will not be able to chat with you for a while. At least, until something changes, this could be days, to months from now. Yesterday, Monday, I got back from a whole week off for thanksgiving, so I have not been able to log into FB or anything else for a while. I went to the library. First thing 2 Saturday mornings ago I went to get on the internet there, to take care of several things, including talking to you. =3, but I only waited to find out there’s fines on my library card and I can’t access the PC’s GRRRRRR. All isn’t lost, I am back in school now, just need to find time to get on Facebook. As for the cell phone idea, I pretty much think that’s off. There’s something big and awesome I am saving up for instead, but I did put in word with parents, for a cell phone for Christmas. Maybe it will work out =D
For thanksgiving My Mom, me, and my step dad, went to my step dad’s dad’s house, and I didn’t know a single soul there, and being the anti-social person I am just, kinda kept to myself. Talked to a few people about football, my art, and later watched some of the younger kids play and fight over the Wii. That was kinda hysterical, for me anyway, laughing on the inside. Sorry ><. SO what did you do for thanksgiving? GO to another family members? Pig out on turkey and pie? Hehe, tell me all about it.
In other news I lost the original letter I typed up over 9000 days ago I was going to send you. Now watch, next I will lose your address and won’t be able to send this, lol. That’s gonna suck. But however, I do believe the original envelope is in my stuff. I remember I put, reading your letter, and responding to your view of our friendship. I cherish yours. Your one of the few people I can talk to about most anything. And among my best friends, I can talk to you about everything. I love that the most about you. *snuggles* I also like how you don’t let people get to you or make you super upset. And well even if you were bothered you can always message me =3, and you know that. I care =D
A month ago I was feeling pretty depressed and angry and other stuff. Now I am pretty much better. My psychiatrist put me on Zoloft, some anxiety drug or whatever. Anyway I think its working. I am feeling better, most of my deep and dark emotional pains are still there, just suppressed. Ain’t bothering me to much. Now its mostly about money, and loneliness. Really, that loneliness. I just want someone to snug and cuddle, confide with in person, all that jazz, every day. =C I am not going to ramble too much on my problems.
So how’s your life running along? It really bites I can’t keep in touch everyday, I am just praying I get a cell phone for Christmas. Hows your mom and dad? The animals? All your church friends and family? Hope everything is running along smooth. Hope your ok.

Internet BFF
Carlos Aguilar

PS; I am working on drawing ‘furry’ characters of us, because I can, and it may even help me with the loneliness factor, in a weird way. Also, I am a fag. If I can finish something, I will send it with this letter. Also also, I am going to do what I originally planned too, and look for a picture of me, preffereably one with know sunglasses, idunno xD. Anyway, I will see if I can get on FB in a little bit.